A Little Today and A Little of Yesterday...

I am currently getting ready to see my new business take off and I can't begin to tell how excited I am!  I'm working with a program that has given me a lift and I don't think they even are aware of the lift they gave me. I'm always saying how if we believe and are able to some how let go of the crazy things in our lives as well as anything negative with in doors just start to open.  You can't just sit there and expect it to happen we have to go out and create it and that's when the magic happens because you allow your faith to carry you and your willing to close your eyes and leap (wow, sorry that was a lot of ands).

I told you all how lost I have felt about losing my aunt up in Northern CA, she was so much to me not just my aunt but a friend and a mentor.  I could always call her and when ever I drove back up North I would get so excited as I got onto Highway 680 because I always felt like I was coming home (to my other home).  I knew we would get to sit and talk and talk and we talked about a lot of things and I have missed her and knowing that on my next drive she would not be there saddened me quite a bit. It had been hard for me to get back into anything then through a friend who really had no idea of what she did introduced me to an individual.

 This is my aunt and my family at one of our last family vacations to their home.

 Who introduced me to a program which I really can't talk about just yet but once I'm officially selected then I can share, promise.  Just the possibility of working with this program helped me to get excited once again to get my new business "Mama Cheesecake" off and running.  I also realized there is a second half to my aunt and that is my uncle he is still with us and I am sure he is really a lot more lost then I.  I also realized that I can go up and see him and still be excited to come up, he is an amazing business man (retired) and I can ask him for suggestions and help which is a very good thing!  Also they both were really excited to see me reach my success after having several set-backs they felt I was heading into the right direction.  They cautioned me on a few things which I have taken care of since then. This all means that Mama Cheesecake is up and running with no stops engine is full of steam!

In fact I just found out that I will be receiving a call regarding my second account that is asking for a weekly order, woohoo!  Now this is not official but my source is a pretty darn good one and they already told her (my daughter).  Also I reached out to several places requesting the opportunity to do a tasting with them in order to see about making them one of my new accounts!  Hey at this rate I will be needing an assistant that can help me bake (for pay of course), this is all so very exciting.  OK, another great thing is that I also just got off the phone with the Greek Theater to begin the steps to see if they will carry Mama Cheesecake!  Just to have the opportunity and experience is sooooooo cool!!!  

OK, so for the secret program I had to pull together pictures that can be used to help tell my story and it was totally a trip down memory lane. My heart was filled with so much love just looking at the pictures that paved my road and brought me here where I'm at today.

My pictures took me all the way to when my babies were babies, they took me to Germany and the Azores where my kids were born.  I saw places where I lived and places where I visited.  I saw happy faces and tears on faces and everything in between not to mention all the wonderful individuals that have touched my life in so many ways!  I got to go down memory lane of my days as a wife and then as a single mom and it was so good to see.

I got to review over and over again both of my kids growing-up once again, I saw their smiles and their tears and their excitement along with their accomplishments along their way.  I also found home made cards and notes from my kids to me one that took me all the way back to when I first was separated from my ex.  It was a card from my daughter telling me how she was going to help me feel better and smile more once again.  Which reminded me once again how important it is to share with our kids but to be careful not to overload them with our messes.  We need to remember that it is OK, to share with then that we are sad but that we will be OK.  I want to say there were too many times that I wanted to keep from telling them anything and yet from that card I could see I did not express to them that I was sad due to the break-up but that I knew all would be OK. I wanted to shield them from the hurt going on and yet they knew along!  Our kids no matter how young they are can see and feel what is going on with in our families.

Do you ever wonder if you did the right thing?
Do you ever wonder if you could have done better?
Do you ever think would I do this again?

I have many times thought about these very questions and the answer is always the same!
Yes, I know that I did do the right thing!
No, I don't wonder if I could have done better; I know that I did the very best and that I always consulted with others. Some things we just can't stop like the bruised knees, the heart ache, the triumph over their successes, etc... These are the things that helped to shape our kids what we can do is guide them through it so that they are not hurt to the point of scars!
OH, I don't even have to think if I would do it again because the answer is always the same in a heart beat I would do it again!!!  Now if I could go back and do it knowing everything I know now would I make minor adjustments and the answer is absolutely!  Please keep in mind I would only do minor adjustments.

My daughter and my son have told me over and over again that they are who they are because of what I have taught them and most importantly shown them.  So if I would go back and change everything they would not be who they are now; who they are now are amazing strong willed, intelligent adults, who know what they want and are not afraid to go after it.

I love my life and all of it's opportunities and I am so deeply grateful for my past, it is who created me as I am today!  And, now it's time to get back to Mama Cheesecake, woohoo!!

And, so it goes...